WHO I HOPED TO BE
WAS ALWAYS
ME
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3 cups
Blueberries
3 cups
Flour
1 cup
Sugar
melanie breaux
1½ cups
Butter
daniel palladino
alex wun
rebecca reyes
eli alfau
miah lapeyrolerie
emily roberson
kaitlyn sowles
julia lane
julia lane
julia lane
julia lane
sarah pickel
cailyn mathis
hover
over
me
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artist statement
I am interested in self-explorative time traveling. I imagine a chronological timeline of my past and present memories. Holding moments in place and so I am able to retrace and retrieve them. This timeline sometimes swirls around me from my head to my toes. Allowing me to feel immersed in my experiences. This turns into a rapid tornado that forms a centripetal darkness around me. Allowing specific memories to illuminate. This is how I navigate the memories in which I time travel to. They act as stars in the night guiding me to a previous moment. Only then can I remember the pain and how I have transformed since then.
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My work lies in a place where one goes to shed old skin. Revealing an intertwined (re)arrangement of past, present, and future. An exposition of evolution into the next stronger version of oneself. Ridding hearts and minds from excess intangible toxicity. (Re)assembling energy, memory, and knowledge. A visual understanding, conceptualized in new spaces of the mind. This is how one (re)engineers through an evergoing metamorphosis of mind, body, and soul. Ultimately to be faced with the truth; who we are at this contemporary moment.
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there is too much to say.
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'so tonight that I might see' was an in-process work that was unfortunately interrupted by COVID-19. once in quarantine, I was asked to (re)imagine my thesis. With the help of two talented artists, I was able to create a film that acts as an extension of my original work/research. My heart may be broken from what could have been, but I feel extremely grateful to have had this opportunity.
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I am so blessed.